I knew something wasn’t right, but I never imagined that things had gotten that far out of control.  In August of 2017 I walked into the doctors office for my routine 6 month lab work and check up.  I hadn’t been great, things seemed off, but i never imagined just how far things had gone out of control.  I stepped onto the scale and seen the highest number I had ever seen in my life, and I was in shock!  I couldn’t believe it.  My first thought was oh no my body is shutting down, i am retaining everything, again!  I am back to square one.  What is going to happen now.  The thoughts just kept coming.  What if this, what if that, what if, what if, what if.  I sat there in that little room waiting for the doctor to walk in.  While he didn’t seem as concerned about the insane about of weight gain in the short 6 months (approximately 40+ pounds), I was at a loss of what I was going to do.  Then the doctor came in and we discussed lab results and sure enough my thyroid had gone off the rails, again!  This has been a part of my story for the past 10 years, and while there had been small ups and downs, but it hadn’t went completely off the rails since the initial diagnosis in 2009.  I left the doctors office and headed back to the office, the doctor’s answer being yet another medication adjustment and no real answers as to the cause.  I have learned that listening to the doctor is the best option, as far as taking the medicine goes, I tried deviating and doing it my way in the beginning, and it didn’t work.  I headed back to the office wondering what I was going to do to get the weight off and get to a better, healthier place.  I starting praying, praying a lot, I turned over my health and my battle with the thyroid to the Creator, who knows way more about the way my body works, I mean He created me.  He knows me inside and out.  He even knows how many hairs are on my head, and if you seen the amount of hair I lose on the daily, you would understand what a miracle it is He can keep up with that.  Now I would really like to be able to say that the clouds opened up and scriptures popped out and some miraculous moments happened that shifted and perfected everything, and then give you that magic prayer, but it didn’t, that has not been how God has worked in my life.  I am now 18+ months into that prayer.  God has been faithful to lead me through a process of getting my health back on track, thyroid is still not exactly where we want it, but it’s getting closer and I am 90+ pounds less than what I was when I started and feeling great.

What is an area you are struggling with today?  What is the thing that doesn’t seem right that you are avoiding and hoping is really nothing.  My prayer is that today is your day, write it down, place a marker on the road and say today is the day things start to change.  Surrender to the God who has the answer and wants to meet you right where you are. And he wants us to let him have control, and then, here is the hard part, be still and let Him work.  He will lead and guide and prepare the steps.  He isn’t afraid of the messes.  He already prepared the way and wants to lead us along the way, say yes to His pursuit today.

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